Some days I really like being alone. I enjoy the solitude and the quiet. I work around my house and yard. I catch up on my writing. I read. I study my Bible. But some days being alone turns to loneliness and I feel lost. I yearn for human contact...a hug, a hand on mine, a conversation, or just sitting in silent company with someone enjoying a cup of coffee.
In being alone I have discovered a lot of things about myself.
-The television can be my worst enemy. It can be much to easy to turn into a couch potato, binge-watching version of someone I really don't want to be. So I try and limit that.
-I try and keep junk food out of the house,. I am an emotional eater, so loneliness and junk food are not a good combination.,
-I really don't like to cook...at least for one person. Its much easier to open a can of soup or make a salad.
-I do not like self-pity. If I find myself feeling sorry for myself, I get up and do something or go help someone else. Taking my daughter to her radiation and chemotherapy each day helps put things in perspective for me.
-I am not a quitter. I absolutely refuse to give in to loneliness. I have learned to recognize it and accept it. But I will not be defeated by it. I recently joined a woman's Bible study group. I meet some friends for lunch from time to time. I go to church, and am being more pro-active about meeting people. I have also become friends with some people in my neighborhood.
This is a new season of life that I am experiencing and God is showing me new things about myself. I keep having a sense that God is calling me to something but I am not quite sure what that is yet. I am excited to find out what it might be.
Living alone is sometimes hard to get used too. Myself I like it. But I still get lonely
ReplyDeleteYes, I know how you feel. It is the same with me. I guess, as with anything, there are both good and bad aspects to it...:)
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